Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. Steve Jobs
I spend my days with teenagers, lots of teenagers. When sickness settles in the area I am sure to be exposed. Sometimes you get lucky and avoid all the nastiness and other times it just can’t be avoided. I’ve been home from work for a couple of days so that tells you where my luck ran out. I’m a little stir crazy with time to think, and this project, the deconstruction of my life in order to reassemble it into something new has its moments. Times of pure excitement and energy to move forward and other less enticing periods of panic and fear. I’ve been here before, fearful of change, because what if the outcome is worse than the current status? I know there are people out there that think I’m crazy for wanting to live in a tiny house, and there are days that I believe them. In those quiet spaces where I can hear myself think, the voice that resides in my comfort zone gets loud and sounds something like this…
“You’ll hate living in a small space.”
“This is a crazy idea.”
“What a stupid waste of time and money.”
“You’re not smart enough or strong enough to pull this off.”
“What if this is a giant disaster and mistake.”
This grand step into a tiny house is not something being forced upon me. I could easily continue on with life as I know it, making safe, well-traveled adjustments as needed. There are a lot of moving pieces designing this future lifestyle, the actual house sometimes seems the most straightforward. When the voice of fear is taking over my head, I take a deep Ujjayi ocean breath and think about what is good.
- The number of discarded items is growing steadily, over 1200 items so far and I don’t miss any of them.
2. I’m taking better care of myself striving for greater mental and physical stamina.
3. My emotions are open to whatever they need to be.
- I have moments of that “peace that passes all understanding” which indicates to me that I am spiritually on the right track.
I think the fear is attached to the subtle hints of the spring that is coming soon…a little more light everyday, much friendlier winter temperatures and lots of birdsong. Spring will also bring action.
1.The purchase of a trailer…I haven’t figured that one out yet, but have done my research and am narrowing it down. Still have a couple of local options to explore.
2. Quotes on a material list … I sorta have one of those.
3. Decisions on windows and front door so framing details can be worked out.
4. Figuring out my “power budget” so I can price out a solar system.
4. The organization of the build site …
AKKK … the list goes on and on, opening the door wide for doubt. I haven’t invested much in the way of money yet.
The greatest investment has come in the countless hours going into research and design. I’ve taped an outline of the house inside my house and am feeling out the movement of 286 sqft … and loving the design challenges! I doodled the featured photo while on a beach in Mexico years ago, I must have needed reminders back then as well. Fear is a giant brick wall slowing down everything in my path. Time to climb over the fear as the Trek to Tiny gains altitude.
Remember friends … kindness begins at home!